I have not been able to barely look at this screen in so long. Mind soo dark and clouded. Depression soo thick its hard to even find the effort to write depressing things. Easier to just forget everything and put no effort in at all. I’m dead inside from where i find myself in my life. A life i have lived for almost 3 years. Nothing but every day of the same. Nothing but security and the same people. No new experiences of developing worth. Living out each day through dead eyes. Nothing surprises me. Nothing excites me. Everything is believable and nothing is special. This is the perception i have. I lay in bed last night and realized i was going to sleep with Clenched teeth and dead eyes. Every day for a long time now i have been thinking from all directions about my life and the effect it is having on me and my development as a person. I have drifted away into a sea of money,possessions,mediocre situations and mediocre people. My clouded mind has prevented me from being able to read and further more prevented me from being able to feel. I am numb inside. I dont feel i have progressed much as a person over this past year. I have dug myself deeper into a hole of dead living. The deeper i have gone, the more crippled i feel, therefore making it harder for me to fight back and try to bring myself back to the surface so i might turn this dark night around. The time for revolution is now. As to whether i can go through with it remains to be seen. Theres all the possibility that i stay in this place but i know it will not be good for me. i am already damaged from the extension of this experience past its redeeming qualities in the past. It would appear this latest post seems a bit lifeless. Read the title again. I could probably ramble and say lots more things but talk is cheap. i need to express myself but i more-so need to act. so we shall see.
Peace out.
A-Town.
Yeah.
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